I hope you know I hate what I have done.
I wish I could go back and change what I have done to you.
breaking your heart making it shatter then trying to glue and taping it back together so it will be all better.
I don't know how to write a poem or book I just want to write to express.
IS THAT SO HARD?
I can't stand my self I wish I was dead and out of your way.
so you can be free of me, so I won't hurt you anymore.
I ask again and again WHY STAY WITH ME IF I DO THIS?
you simple reply "because I love you"
My brain tells me to jump of the thirty foot tree when my heart screams at me DON'T DO IT SHE WILL CRY TILL THE END.
So I step back.
I'm sorry I've hurt cheated and broken promises more then once I wish I could go back and stop myself but I simply can't.
so as time goes on I'll try my best to change my life and the way I am so you don't have to deal with your mom and dad telling you "stop this crap and dump her"
I'm trying my hardest to stop the things I'm doing to stop hurt your feeli